why?

为什么她们将在乎他?
不明白...

The me

I long time didn't touch my blog already...full of dust...
Everything is getting better now...and next year I will have a very busy 2010...
I hope I can handle everything,which is, music, studies and children.

now,I am headache with the montessori...
I totaly have no ideas with that...and I gona to teach next month...
actually it is really fun for teacher to teach and for children to learn...I am trying my very best to understand the way of using the materials now.

Nevertheless, I cannot practice very well for my sonatina. mayb I lazy to read the note.
I dont have the motivation to practice piano. (if let my teacher to know, will kena shoot)
somebody motivate me please.

next,come to my studies. I should do my revision now, but I dont know where to start becasue the stupid lecture didn't give any study areas for us. she expect us to study all...she said, nobody will fail her subject, I think I am the one who will fail her subject. From the very first day, she told us that she will teach everybody understand everything that she teach. She is better then mahani malik, but, her class is a little bit boring.

Lastly, this year is a very special year. I will celebrate christmas with my lovely cello.

痛

痛...

Wish

开心就好...
all the best to u... :-)

Michael Jackson

recently...

I am crazy with you...

Fall in love with your song so so much...

...beat it...

...you are not alone....

...will you be there...

..heal the world...

and alots alots....

understand your lyrics...

I love your song so much...

love your moonwalk....

Pass tense

I miss that night...

Richard Clayderman...

Every song that he played is nice~

I miss that night also...

beauty and the beast...

I miss that birthday...

when I was 8 year old...

the first party...

I miss my 5A1...

they are funny...

I miss the time when I staying with u all...

After I leave u all...

don't know how many years I only can cover my sadness.

until now...I still miss...mama,papa,koko, and jie jie.

I will never forget.never!never!!

I miss the time that spend with cousin...

they are fuuny...

and...they are cute...

I miss the hostel life...

first time I staying at hostel..

Kc hostel...

I miss my first jobs...

data entry...

I miss my student...

you all are cute...

I miss my colleague...

the only colleague...

teacher penny...

I miss the trips...

rushing for flight...

still remember that...FINAL CALL...

have fun in the plane...

topic

'this topic again'
that is not an important topic.
is a lame topic.
who can und?
feeling so hard.
suffer ownself.
nobody realize this.

A bored wed

I felt bored after I quit my job.
but,actually I got a lot of assignments to do and my piano exam is around the corner.

I am nervous with all this.
still can handle with the assignments.but my piano exam,sigh~
grade 7,its not a joke.

I still left 1 and a half month to prepare.

but I also left 1 more song havent complete and also my scale, oral, sigh reading...
everything and everything.

forcing myself to practice everyday,but I just can't practice long.

I lost the patient like last time.

because I when I leave my high school life, I seldom practice with my piano and my cello just speechless.I can see that a lot of dust sticking on my cello case.

Today I yam cha with friends and I meet my music school's principals.
damn stress man,just sitting beside the next table.

Today I have called a lot of my frens.I am glad that almost everyone of them are picking up my phone even they are having class,except shih er but she msg me immediately after hang up my phone.They are still the same.exspecially our lovely JOLENE! her big respone in the way she talk and also the action,still the same.coz,while talk in phone with her I can imagine her action.damn fun.

Missing those day we are hangging together.Only smiling,laughing with us.

You're fired

Today is my last day of my work.

Finally I leave the hell.

Is really suffer to work there.

I AM FREEDOM!!!

Take it easy

Some are fake

just don't bother and be our own

live in an easy and simple way, then we will feel more comfortable

no fighting to each other

appreciate what we have and being together

learnt a lot from others

listen to their comments

and

respect to everyone.

Eileen's 19th birthday

Finally~I have finished my exam.

tomorrow is eileen's bday.but me n mich already celebrate with her.

ailing,u tai gor lui jor.

I think u will und this.

we went to solaris for celebrate her bday.
we ate korean food.

the kin chi!!!omg!!!really cold.

as mich said, I am a real authentic chinese.

on that day,I have bought a biggggggggg Kisses chocolate for her.

hoho,all the best in ur exam.

after our dinner,blow candle time.

Eileen have an unforgetable candles.

I bought the magic candles for her.

and she can't blow even 1,because really difficult to blow.

the boss come and 'help fire'.haha...

the situation really funny.

at the end,mich use water and 'help the fire'

mich,u know,u candle still can use.really waste.

after this,we go and walk walk and take photo.

the mich really not professional.

because she capture me a lot of ugly face.

Dr.Michelle and Captain Eileen^^

8 gang~

This is us~ '8 gang'

This is the first time and the last time for us.

We are 8 enough.none stop talking.

8 and 8 and 8.

Till the time before seat for our spm exam.We are still 8-ing.

How 8-ful we are?

Eat to live or live to eat?

Delicious food~

Are you a person that eat to live or live to eat???

I like the food and also the environment.

I love night view so much.

No more noice.It is really peaceful.

Friendship?

Yesterday after class,me,yk,qy and yy went to our lunch.
sigh~something bad I have knew.
Its make me very hot tempare and sad.
I am moody on yesterday.
What a friendship I have?
Is a act and a fake!

It is meaningless for being friends.

No forgiving

Everytime when I flash back I will very angry with her.
I tyring hard to calm down myself.yet,I just couldn't to do it.
I have give a chance to her and myself.but, at the end still the same.
I can't stand for her anymore.
Then,what should I do? I make a distance with her. Is a long-long distance that we cannot crash to each other. This is to protect myself,I am just frighten that I am getting hurt(s) from her again.

"Perhaps,she will be forgiven"

Life goes on

Today I have finished the math assignment.
after I have done it I sent it to chirsty.
she check the gramme mistake for me.
then,at night i msg and ask her am i got any improvement?
and she say no.this time even bad.because got some she is not understand what am i writing about.sigh~i know i am poor and even worse then poor.
I willing to learn.but,when i am learning somebody has a lot of commentsssssssssssssssss.keep steping on my head.am i nice to bully?
but somehow,i will continue to learn from christy.i won't affect by somebody.i won't bother the somebody anymore.i just do my part.

nonetheless,
today i went for an interview.
the boss not accept me.because i have not enough qualification.
sigh~
before that i still very happy.because my teacher told me that the boss accept me.but at the end,my interview was fail.i am so dissapointed and also my mum.but i know i got a lot of chance in the future.thus,I WILL WORK HARDER NOW!!!(hopefully i can)

beyond that,
i still need to stay at the kindergarden for 1 month plus.
i am suffering there.suffering from the children and also the environment.hopefully i am still alive after 1 month plus.

lastly,
i wish i have a good sleep tonight.
and tomorrow will cheer up.

My 19th birhtday celebration with Eileen and Michelle

3 April 09,my best frens, eileen and michelle,both of them celebrate my belated brithday at sunway.3 of us seldom meet together.unless someone birthday or EILEEN'S holiday.because she is in form 6 now.So very difficult to meet.

on that day,michelle keep holding her camera and cap.walau,got alot of ugly face.She is not professional.

Here is one of the example.

yes.This is me.I know is ugly.

I am stress-free when together with them.
Sometime they cannot understand what am I talking about.

because both of them are english education and also english speaking at home.
wow~how come my english so poor.because both of them talking with each other is in english.when I join them,they will change in chiness.They will weird when speaking english with me.coz they already biasa speaking chiness with me.
so,sometimes our jok is come from the communication problem.

Not bad,our friendship still can last until now.

They ask me the cantonese words and I ask them the english word.

On that night,this is our dinner.

wow~fire u!!!!!

and after that is become like this.

In addition,
michelle acting is poor and funny.
and eileen's respone is slow.
both of them plus together is fun and laugh.

michelle ask eileen got any plan later?
The eileen read out the msg.
and I knew it.I break their plan.haha,so funny.

then,after that eileen say go toilet.

she go le about 20 mins + i think.
then,mich say she poo poo.

after that,eileen holding the ice-cream waffle with the candle and sing birthday song.
I was surprice in that moment.

The ice-cream is I apply on it.I know a lil bit disgusting.paiseh.

Really feel touch and happy.
thanks so much to eileen and michelle.

My 19th birthday

Today is my birthday.
happy birthday to me.^^

This morning of course i still need to work,but very luckly that today class cancel.

A fren celebrate with me in this afternoon.
She treat me eat sushi and also the present.
I love the present so much!!!!!
The present is a picture book.The name of the book call...
THE VERY HUNGRY CATERPILLAR

Is really nice and good book for children.

thx ya.^^
After that,I went to aunty4's house becasue mum and aunty's family want to celebrate for me.
We went to mont kiara and have our dinner.

then, we went to a restaurant call BAR M~
Is an itallian restaurant,if i not mistakend.
after we finished our dinner,we went back aunty4's house and cut cake.
Oswald and Chloe give me present.
The present from Oswald is a cloth and a pants.
The present from Chloe is 2 panties~
I paiseh to show the picture here...(^.^)
so fuuny la...both of them so small...Oswald 4 year old and Chloe is 2 year old.

Both of them are so excited when see the cake,they are the 1st to stand infornt of the cake.^^cute~

Thx mami and Lim's family.
I appreciate it.^^

My dream

I can't sleep tonight,because i sleep too much in the afternoon.

I seldom can sleep in the afternoon.I think I am too tired.And i keep dreaming.not willing to wake up because I really tired.

last saturday I went to an orchestra.Its really nice~my teacher got take part in the orchestra so that I only can get free tiket.as 'somebody' said i am so CHEAP.eveyrthing also want free.haha

Is really nice for taking part in a big orchestra team.Perharp,one day i can.but I know I need to put more time on my cello.sigh~
as vitor said,music and dance is cannot lie,because both of this need a lot of practice only can show the result.yes,I agree with him.

I think I need to put more affort on my cello.
But,everytime I just say,i didn't take action.so sad!

My grade 7 song is very hard to play.Not the notes but the speed and dynamic.

Sometime I am confusing which one is my dream.

Children?or Music?

or Children+Music?

I think may be this is my dream~




malaysia philharmonic orchestra

My moody day

Today is a moody day for me.
christy went for vacation.a little bit miss her.
nobody sit beside me,so i ask yy sit beside me.
normally yy sit behide me,so we seldom talk in the class.
but,she sit beside me we keep on talk and talk and talk.non-stop.
me and yy always use eye contact to communicate.so,when everytime we look at each other we will know what happen.so fun.^^

sigh~
the professional assignment.the others group want to pick 1 people from our group.they got not enough people so they break up our group.how can?
somemore said that,put christy in their group because christy is not there.my first respone is,CANNOT!!!CANNOT!!!CANNOT!!!HOW CAN?!!!
christy,you are important for us~
I feel that, they are not asking us,they are forcing us.
others group not accept you all so that come and break up our group.the reason is,our group too big!!!

Between,
am I bad?not really.
because I really cannot accept her.I don't know why.
A fren said I am 'small gas'.Am I?
I think I am not.
may be this is the way that I protect myself.
I think i am quite friendly people,not like 'some people'.doesn't wnat to socialize.
I don't know why when everytime I see her or I going to see her i will up set and angry.
somebodys can cure me?

Express!!!

I am having one week holiday.
Today is friday already.
my holiday gone like this.
I think is too short for me.
Can't do much thing.
Yesterday i gethering with my tuition gang. and also + hui zhi.
acutally all know each other and all same class before.really funny when i saw phiak ling and siew yee.phaik ling keep laughing.and siew yee keep jokking.we are really loud in the restaurant.and all of us tot the restaurant is a melay restaurant.because the name of the restaurant really look like a malay name.call,cafe...don't know what already.next time i ask phaik ling i let u all know.i think only her will remember,because she organize want.

wow~i think i very long dint organize already.
last time i always be the organizer,now no more already,because really tired.now very difficult to match the time.so all of us is hard to be gether.unless sometime gether with the small group people only.
oh yea,i think everyone of us very long dint see jolene already.only the people who same college with her got meet her bah.don't know how is she now already.A pretty, famous,and talents girl.never see her online before.
Jolene we miss u.

last Saturday sing k with mei sien they all at garden.
The kai yan very fuuny la.she sing until half,suddently go and open the door,and ask the waiter,'what u want now'? we are shock.kai yan so suddently.Garden's red box really expensive than others,but got buffer eat la.the buffer food very finish.because look like no need to paid.so fun.
frens,am i stingy?am i no bone?
i really angry with that people.i could'nt calm down after very long.at first,i tot i ok already,but she keep continue with her words like this.i really cannot stand.really wonder why i still can stand so long.i think that is not me.because Jing Mun is not like this!

After the holiday i think i am much more busy.
because my exam coming soon,my assignment not finish yet,my piano master class and trail also coming soon. and the most important thing is, my house going to renovate on tomorrow.
wow~I think my house will very dusty during the reno period.
then i my neighbourhse also get dirty.YEAH!!!i balance already.
please do not misunderstand that i am 'black heart'.my neighbout has renovate thier hse for 1 year.and i tahan the nosic sound for 1 year,also my baby car.now we do the same thing to them.wakakaka!!!!!!!

this is what i said before,u treat me bad,i will return the double for u!!!!

Cloudy after the rain

I am in the pc lap now.
Just now chrisy come and help me somthing.forgot to say thx to her.
thx christy!

Yesterday was so happy.
Because we get some jok.
Yen Kheng laugh until cry,really funny when we look at her face.
then everyone stomach pain already.

I think everything is ok now.
hope won't happen again.
letz work with streefree and have a happy college life.

Silent

Less talk less conflict.
this is from a very knowlegeable frens.
Always be silent.
Then,everything will be peace.
But,i am a talkactive person.I hope i can.


People who loves to bully,
please stop it.
People who let people to bully,
please be strong.

Learn from the experience

Hot tempered

I don't know what happen to me.
I easily to get angry nowadays.
May be is just for somebody(s).
I think i cannot stand for people(s) who loves to show off and step on people.
I think once or twice i can stand for it.But not always.
I really dislike this kind of life~
Difficult to control my emotion.
Everyone is suffering.

life~

very tired and sleepy now.
feel like want to write blog but very tired.
what is 'life' about?
born,study,work,marry,give birth,die.
i think i am in the between of 2nd and 3rd stage now.
which is study and work.
i was resigned last friday.
but need to give 3 month noties.
i was very surpriesed of my boss's respone.
she just respone to me a 'ok'.
i think her wish is want me to resign.
i really don't know why she can survive.
her kindergarden is not a good kindergarden.
i think it cannot bring children to the right track and also cannot give the best education to them.
haiz.speechless.

friendship,
what is 'friendship' about?
sometime really don't know how to meet with somebody(s).
feel suffering.
from the dialog,words,and sentences.
some can be close fren but some cannot.
because they cannot see where they wrong.
of cause i know everyone will have weakness.
but sometime really cannot accept somebody(s).

'WIN' impotant?
for somebody(s),may be yes.
may be also the genaration problem.but may be not.may be is just for some.

i am a very simple people.
u treat me how,i will treat u how.
u treat me good of cause i will treat u good good.
if u treat me bad,i will return back the double for u.
this is me.